If you didn't hear this from Lily, first…

…my grandma died today.
For my entire life, she lived in Florida – and only in this second half of the year did her health turn for the worse, and she was put into a nursing home. I was never too close to her – the most recently I’ve talked with her was just through email correspondance, with some photos of myself and some music I’d composed. Like most people and their grandparents, it would have been nice to spend more time with her.
It’s not ultimately saddening or shocking – we were expecting it, but not so early. But she’s been a widow for 19 years now – my grandpa passed away a few months before I was born. Her death marks the first death in my family since I was born.
So yeah, never been to a funeral, never had to deal with anything like this. I don’t know what’s going to happen, plans-wise. I can’t imagine how my dad feels.
Sadly, it’s yet another case of not knowing what you had until it was gone. Hmm. I think I’m going to hang out a bit with my friends; this doesn’t seem like the appropriate time to be milling around on the net.


  1. Yeah, I didn’t really go into depth about it on my entry, so you basically summed it up. I don’t know. I’m not really emotional or anything. I cried for like 2 minutes, but now I’m just in deep thought. Perhaps I’m in shock? (Wouldn’t I know if I was?) We were relatively close but, like you, not as close as I would have wished. I don’t really know anything right now.

    1. I’d say I’m sorta in shock as well. Deep thought. Basically the same thing I felt on 9/11. Only this one I’m a lot more serious about. I think I’m calling Dad now.

  2. My condolences, Jeff. I’m currently in a similar situation with one of my grandmothers right now. Only she’s dying from alzheimers, and the fact that she can’t remember me anymore makes it even more painful.

    1. Yeah… I can imagine how that feels. My stepmom’s mom has been like that for years… it’s pretty amazing to me that my grandma, in okay health for the past few years, would pass away before someone like that, who, bluntly put, is causing pain for those close to them as well. I don’t know.

  3. My attendence to family gatherings has been the opposite in comparison to yours.
    I’ve been to more Funerals than weddings.
    The news hits everyone in a differnet way. I tend to silently contomplate and let the thoughts and memories sit in my head for a good while….
    sure ya probably would feel a little sad…if not, kinda humbled that life’s cycle is still goin… and time waits for noone.
    Sorry to hear about your granma man.

  4. Sorry to hear about your loss.
    The same kind of thing happened with me like two years ago. I was never all that close to my grandma and she passed away almost in an instant it seemed.

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