That's it.

It’s over… no more… I’m not going to take it.

They said they’d change. I told them over, and over, and over. But still, they play with me as if I’m an insignificant little speck, devoid of any respect they might decided to belch out at me. I don’t have to be treated this way. There’s no fucking way I’m going to stand it.

michiru_mama agrees with me – they’ve gone over the edge and there’s no turning back. Day after day, they mock me, thinking that I’ll come back to them with a new outlook, ready for a fresh start. But even then, they shut me down.

It’s fucking wrong to play with someone’s emotions like this. And I think they know they’re doing it. There’s no stopping it, and I’m just not going to deal with it anymore.

So I’m saying goodbye.

Goodbye to my dining hall’s undercooked hard-boiled eggs.

I AM LIVEJOURNAL

Hey, it’s a meme because I’m proud of my MP3 collection.

First 20 random songs from my iTunes library:

1) Lapis Lazuli – Awe of She
2) Sampling Masters MEGA – rottel-the-Mercury
3) Billy Ocean – Caribbean Queen
4) YOMA KOMATSU – ever snow
5) Mogwai – Yes! I Am A Long Way From Home
6) The Future Sound of London – Elysian Feels
7) Coldplay – Yellow (Acoustic)
8) Squarepusher – Acid Jazz and Trip Hop
9) Happatai – YATTA!
10) TENTH PLANET – GHOSTS (Vincent De Moor Original Mix)
11) Radiohead – High and Dry
12) Gorillaz – Clint Eastwood (Phi Life Cypher Version)
13) Taku Iwasaki – Witch
14) Adam Clayton – Mission Impossible (Dave Clarke Remix)
15) Ailsean – Metalroid
16) Chemical Brothers – Don’t Stop the Rock
17) Daft Punk – Revolution 909
18) BeMaNiRuler – MaxX Enigma
19) OLIVIA PROJECT – XANADU
20) NAOKI – PARANOiA Jazzy Groove + Trip Machine Climax + Dead End

Wow… almost all of those sucked. Maybe I should be given a do-over. Stupid DDR songs screwing up my song selection.

Read it again, for the first time!

I added a little more than a year’s worth of blogging to my LiveJournal – since my site’s down, I’ve decided I’ll use LiveJournal as my main blogging tool from now on, so I thought I’d have my complete archives here. Now if I can only find those missing 2002-2003 entries…

Anyway, do it NOW. Click on the Archives thing and head back to 2001 and have fun. Looking back, I still don’t think I was that juvenile or immature back in 2001. Makes me feel all smart about myself.

I had a horrible bloody nose this morning. I don’t have kleenex, so one of my towels looks really awesome with dark spots all over it. Must’ve been something I saw, har har har.

I think I’ll remake jeffreyatw.com with assburst.com as its main direction/name – or maybe have jeffreyatw.com redirect to assburst.com – either way, it’ll probably just be another personal site, with a different content-browsing method – probably more Movable Type based. Like, I’ll upload all images and other media through Movable Type so I can keep track of them that way, and people can comment on and filter the files they want.

And I probably won’t restart my blog. Instead, my livejournal will become my main blog.

Procrastination

Work work work work play work work play play work play play play play work play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play play ARRGGHH!!!