Time

I’m starting to feel overworked. Not really stressed, but sort of distraught about my overall situation.
I’m spending most of every day doing homework. Although I’m trying harder than I ever have to understand the material in my grad class, the grades I get back show that it’s not good enough. At the same time I feel like I’ve lost my best friend, and while I’m trying to cultivate new friendships, I feel like there’s just not enough time to do that.
I still think that I’m on the right track, in the big picture. Next quarter might present a slightly lesser class load (out of unavailability of classes I need to take), but I’m not sure about that. With my relationship ending, my future seems simpler (and even more convenient), but it comes at the cost of remaining unhappy for a currently indefinite amount of time.
I might be able to squeeze a movie in with Toph tomorrow, and this weekend might even give me enough time for a trip with Toph, Davyn and Amber to Vancouver. Even if I can barely afford to spend that time on fun, I think it might be more important than any other assignment I’m supposed to be doing.

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      1. that’s not redundant.
        if it’s indefinite, it’s unknown.
        “not definite; without fixed or specified limit”
        or
        “not clearly defined or determined”
        by adding “currently”, you imply that it’s possible and likely that it will become definite in the future. or, that it was definite in the past, but something went wrong and made it indefinite.
        i can’t see how that can be thought of as redundant.

        1. You’re forgetting that I’m talking about “happiness.” Once I am happy again, it will no longer be a currently indefinite amount of time until I am happy, nor will it be an indefinite time. Think harder.

          1. once you are happy again, you won’t be able to talk about “time until you’re happy” at all, so it won’t be indefinite, and it won’t be definite.
            however, you need not be happy to know when you might be happy in the future, for “time until you’re happy” to be “somewhat definite”.
            technically, it depends on if your unhappiness is based on something(s) tangible or not.
            but analyzing what you wrote, “currently” simply describes your hope that it will not be indefinite in the future, or that it’s based on tangible things.

          2. It’s not, really, though. “Currently indefinite” isn’t an oxymoron. She may not have done the best job explaining it, but she’s still kinda right.
            Besides, semantics are fun! We got a modular language that we can do all sorts of cool shit with.

          3. ‘he’, yeah.
            i love semantics 🙂
            it’s hard to talk about semantics though.
            semantics is usually about the details of details, and multiple possible interperetations; and the english language just doesn’t have a structure that works on that level.
            or maybe i’m just bad at communicating on that level.
            my point was actually to offer ways of interpereting the phrase “currently indefinite” as non-redundant.
            i did so by stating my initial interperetation.
            i did so also because i didn’t understand how it could be interperated as redundant, and because jeffreyatw stated that he didn’t understand how it could be interpereted as non-redundant.
            in fact, i still don’t understand how it could be interpereted as redundant. how did you or jeffreyatw interperet it?

          4. I actually don’t know where redundant came from. “Indefinate time” means “an unknown time, possibly forever.” To say something is “currently indefinate” is to say that, “for the time being, it is infinite”. It sounds oxymoronic at first until you just sort of think about it as a matter of understanding than of being. The crux of his argument to you was that once things change, it would no longer be “currently indefinite.”
            Of course, if we’re assuming the status quo is going to change, things would be neither current nor different. Doesn’t really matter, though. It’s still a perfectly good pair of words tossed together.

          5. Currently indefinite = currently boundless = currently forever. You don’t say “at this time, forever.” Its redundant, it must be redundant, otherwise its a contradiction (because if its not always forever than its never forever).
            The word he was looking for was “undefined.”

          6. indefinite means boundless, or with unknown bounds, but i didn’t think it means forever.
            i was reading “indefinite” as “unknown” or “undefined”, referring to the time as a variable. “forever” refers to the time as fixed, in my opinion.
            oh, but i just realized, couldn’t “at this time, forever” make sense anyway without being redundant? set up the example of water flowing out of a lake through a stream. now add in a few plans for daming the stream, or widening and deepening the stream, or piping the water out.
            if someone asks “how long until the lake runs dry?” a valid answer would be “it is currently indefinite”.
            this is because “indefinite” refers to boundaries, and “currently” refers to the ability of those boundaries to change.

          7. “Unknown bounds” is not technically a synonym for “forever,” but its close enough that only the mightiest pickers of nits would complain about it.
            Your analogy works, though, in a sense. Somebody would have to be playing with words, perhaps to fool somebody, in order to answer a question with such a retort. But it would, technically, be an honest response.

          8. Uh… that’s not what redundant means. Redundant means you’re just repeating yourself. “Currently present” or “Infinitely indefinite” might be considered redundancies, but “currently indefinite” is, as you said, a contradiction. Or, as I said, an oxymoron. You can check any dictionary if you don’t believe me. Seriously. Go check a dictionary for “redundant.”
            Something can be currently indefinite, though. It means that, as something stands, it is infinite. As far as our current knowledge stands, a situation could be indefinite. “An object at motion stays at motion,” to use Sir Newton as an analogy. When something is “currently indefinite,” it will not change unless some outside force steps in to change things.
            “As things stand, I will be unhappy forever.” Meaning: unless something changes, my lack of happiness will remain constant.
            “Undefined” would also do the trick, but its just not as strong a use of semantics or vocabulary.

  1. An fyi or two:
    – I invited Davyn and Amber to AMERICAN GANGSTA as well, Davyn is probably going but I haven’t really talked to Amber. I should probably call her tomorrow
    – Vancouver might not happen this weekend based on the fact that Brian wanted to go too, and he can’t make it this weekend because his parents are visiting. So I’m suggesting two weeks from now, but I haven’t really told Amber about this because I haven’t gotten the chance to talk to her in a while soooo yeah.
    – You coming to that Smash tournament on the 14th?

    1. I am very unsure about Smash on the 14th. Got some giant assignments due the next day. I’ll try to make it but I can’t promise anything (also I’m relatively terrible at Smash)

  2. Get friends who you can study with! Yay! Then you kill hella birdies with just a single stone. Even if they aren’t gonna be your Besty, it’s nice to have people to hang out with. Humans like socialization, no?

    1. Indeed. I do most of my CL homework and math homework in study sessions, or tutoring centers. So I see a good amount of people, and I’m starting to get to know them.

  3. I’m spending most of every day doing homework. Although I’m trying harder than I ever have to understand the material in my grad class, the grades I get back show that it’s not good enough.
    Which classes?

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